Its been so long since I sat n wrote something... I felt I was tryin to point more negative sides (the money I lost, my FIL death, the way IT cos works).... Ofcourse we human are more interested in readin negative news(otherwise NON of media can surviive)...
So, was waiting for the moment to write abt positive happenings... Thanks to Praapti for givin tht moment...
It was satday, deepti is keen on visiting few sports centers to check the swimmin classes for Praapti... we visited couple of bigones.. i was bit nervous with the price strucuture (though i was not showin...), I let deepti to drive the entire show...
My brain was runnin behind the cost involved in it (phewww....sometimes I also worry abt money)... Deepti was more thinkin abt distnace... after all discussion v went to Pizzahut to eat... I wanted to do something different to divert myself fm money stuff... so kept praapti with me and was tryin to help her in eatin... she was pretty happy with the milkshakes, salads and ofcouse her favourite pizza... deepti was nervous by lookin at us, as I am not good enough in managin praapti, especially when she is eatin...still I kept tryin... It was goin good..
While eatin suddely Praapti's eyes saw the balloons of Pizza hut, which was kept there to give it to kids... After finishin the food... i took her near baloon... as a person of hesitance i was waiting for someone to come so that I can ask... but they were busy and I was blockin the way... As deepti is an xpert in these situations, I asked her to ask a baloon... she didnt bother of people... jus went near the stand and grabbed a baloon... No one said anything...
Praapti became the happiest kid after grabbin the baloon... as it was filled with helium... It was tryin to go upwards without control... but still it was with praapti's hand, I started gettin tensed... I opened the door... wind was heavy.... Immediately I started lookin at praapti n baloon... She was more happy with the wind and baloon.... My brain started thinkin... panickness surrounded me...
As it was very heavy wind and the baloon was filled with helium... If praapti misses it... it can fly at any direction and we were near the main junction... I dont want to see praapti loosin the baloon and gettin upset... With the tensed mood and dont want to show the tenstion to praapti... I asked praapti "could you plz hold the baloon tight.." she was not listenin... she was jus holdin it in the tip and was more happy by seein it flyin... I was gettin more nervous... "ammu, wind is heavy... U need to hold it tight"... didnt bother... still happy...
I feel being big and strong is always an advantage.... either it is in work or home... I started holdin her hands and tryin to tie the baloon on the wrist...thinkin tht she can also play and it wont fly... Praapti was not happy with it... She pulled her hands out of me and ran with the baloon towards the junction.... Thats it, my patience level gone... Adrenaline level increased to the max... as praapti was runnin towards junction and baloon might fly away...
I increased my voice... "ammuuuuu... would you plz listen to me... this not goin to be fun... I m here to help you.... U must tie the baloon around your wrist".... thtz all... all the energy that praapti was having were lost... she became quite and started starrin at me with angry mood.. I immediately said "sorry" to her... but she was not happy... immediately shouted at me... "appa.. wud u plz listen to me"(was tryin to repeat wht i said)... and started runnin with the baloon...
I became normal immediately... all this time deepti was jus observin the situation and now she was tryin to go behind praapti to take care of the baloon... I said leave it... deepti was not sure.... but as sincere wife to her hubby... asusual she listend to me.. we walked for nxt 10 mins... praapti was playin with the baloon by holdin it in the tip... we reached the car... v got in with the baloon... we left the place... praapti slept in the car with the baloon....
The reason why I stopped my shoutin/chasin was not bcoz of praapti becomin upset... but she was showin the real truth... "Live in the Present"... as kids they dont know what is future/past... they jus play, learn and have fun with the present... as per praapti, the moment she got the baloon she jus wanted to have fun with it... shez not worried whether it was filled with helium, whether outside weather is bad due to which it will fly away... But as a grownups we worry about future.... and do everything for the future and not njoyin the present moment... Though the baloon would have flown away due to wind... praapti would be upset for sometime and will be askin about it for next few hours... then she will become busy with the "present" things...
Its one week now... the baloon is still with us.... praapti is not bothered abt it, its another 100+ toy for her... as she got more things to do in the "present"... what a great message shez givin me..."Jus live in present" and njoy the life... I do understand we have responsibilities where we need to worry about future... but i feel we jus worry abt future and forgettin the present and not njoyin the present moment and ignoring the fun in the present moment...
I know this is what the lotz of personality development books and zen gurus are tellin... but I feel do we really need someone tell us??? as we are seein lotz of things happenin in front of us... Jus keep watchin the kids... I dont know what else praapti goin to teach me or deepti... But i decided to watch her activities......
Mythology say that Lord Murugan taught the meanin of "OM" to Lord Siva and called as "Thandhaiyudaiyan"( i dont know how to translate in english, i think a person who became teacher for father...not sure) But I feel everyone of our kids are teachin us lotz of lessons to us... we are mere ignorant or not ready to listen to them... Keep watchin them... U will see the differnce...
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