Sunrise/Set that i didnt capture....

It was evening time, its january month... i was standing there... was surrounded by lotz of people... i dont have any clue whatz goin on and dont know what to do...

some one called me and i went near...suddenly other one shouted "Nei... dhamadh hei na... (something.. something in hindi)" i didnt understand that... everyone around me was very calm.. couple of guys who were arrangin the things were speakin in hindi and my wife's relatives were respondin to them... i was watchin at my brother-in-law... he was following whatever the pandit was tellin...

after few mins... my brother-in-law was asked to put the fire on the woods and asked to pour the ghee... slowly the fire started spreading across the woods... the guys who were arranging the things were helpin my brother in law in pourin the ghee across the woods...people around me were talkin in hindi and i didnt have any clue what they talk... someone was sayin "Ghaggi beta ithar aavooo"... i saw my brother-in-law was moving towards a direction and now the fire was spreadin fast and furious.... i followed my brother-in-law... they were talkin in hindi...I stood there for few mins...but no idea whatz the discussion about... so i decided to move towards the corner of that place, where still some more relatives of my wife were standing near the fire...

i was lookin at the fire...i was not sure what to do.... so just turned on otherside... one of my favourite thing was happenin there... The SUN was glowing in orange colour and slowly fallin on the west side and there were no clouds to cover it.... it was looking awesome in the round shape... i love the sunset/rise, wherever i saw it, i will stop doing other things and will capture that using my camera/mobile... So, without any conciousness my hands moved towards my mobile phone to capture it... but i was forced to stop it.... bcoz... i was at the creamation ground where my wife's father was being creamated....

Now i dont know what to do... i was searching for my brother-in-law... he was sittin in a hall and the pandit was tellin something in hindi... was able to recognize my wifes' house address and name of her father, other than that no clue..later my wife's aunts' husband took my brother-in-law out of that small hall...where they stood with other close relatives in line... i presume it was a ritual to thank the people who came for the cremation... after few mins... it was only wife's relatives around me and were speakin in hindi... my brother-in-law was moving towards the fire and i followed him... we were standing there for sometime and someone came and told something to my brother-in-law,so he left that place.... now again i am alone.... when i turned towards west side... The Sun was becomin more beautiful due to its colour... and on the other side 2 more families were coming for cremating their loved ones...

I was jus standin there by thinkin what will be the next...as no one was talkin to me... after few mins my brother-in-laws' friend came and told "Jijoo... mayank is leavin, you can join him"...i went to find my brother-in-law, he was walkin towards the entrance with his aunts' hubby. i followed him...we got in to a car.... my wife's aunt's hubby was talkin in hindi to rest of the people and they were respondin for it... again no clue whtz goin on... again my favourite thing was showin its face between the trees...i was starrin at it, became more red and more beautiful....dont know what to do... so jus closed the eyes....

2 days latter, it was morning 7AM, we were at the shores of river ganges...it was pretty cold... my brother-in-law was wearin jus dhoti..was wonderin how he manages the cold....2 kids came with 2 buckets.... its full of ashes... OOOOffffff... it was my wife's father who was alive 4 days ago... i was wonderin the nature and started thinking philosophically... people around me were talkin in hindi and i was havin no clue... so turned otherside...this time my favourite thing was happenin again... The Sun was slowly risin and was lookin pretty in orange colour behind lotz of mist... the reflection on the river was jus awesome... i heard people chantin gayathri mantra... i turned back, my brother-in-law was pourin the ashes on the water by standin in the water...

After pourin all the ashes, my brother-in-law came out of the water.. they all were talkin in hindi and slowly movin, i joined them... before leavin that place, once again i saw at the east side... the orange colour was fadin and the sun was becomin more bright...i saw the water... a layer was formed bcoz of the ashes and it was movin towards the east direction....

Jus a question came to my mind... Is this what all our life????